`The positive energy vibrations in you enable you to evaluate, make and decide on the choices and decisions made. Ultimately, it will lead you to live a happier and a more meaningful life! Remember, you are blessed with the amazing power to tap this inner power within!!'...Yam TW
"What's happening?" I repeatedly asked myself when I got admitted into a hospital at Kunming, China, following a bout of diarrhoea, and blurry vision. The next morning, I woke up and was not able to see and it was the scariest moment in my life. I was totally confused not knowing if I could ever see again and unsure about my health problems then. Yes, it was in early January 2008, almost 2 years ago, that my life changed and so did my wife's. I could vividly remember in minute details those turbulent, emotional turmoil that gripped my life uninvited.
Endless negative thoughts constantly streamed through my mind at unbelievable rapid pace. I was not able to see but only hearing voices and I was in a state of total confusion, shock and despair! The emotional support from my family was second to none, especially my wife Hong and children. They were the most important factors that really helped me crossed the thin line separating life and the yonder. I knew then that I was not alone 'fighting the war' but I had my family with me going through the thick and thin of the new dark world. They were constantly by my side providing the moral and the emotional support. My thoughts started to shift focus, from myself to my family. I soon realised that I had to make a choice - to pick up the pieces and move forward or wallow in self pity and depression. More importantly, I had to decide to ease the pain and sufferings my family was going through, perhaps, the emotional pain was much worse than my own. I had to do something about it and started to think about the options, choices, decisions, etc. It was fortunate indeed that I was able to dig into my inner strength and made the right choices and decisions that enabled me to accept and come to terms with life.. it was indeed a challenging task to 'cross the barrier' and I had not looked back since. Soon, it will be two years since I last saw myself and my family. There is the one wish that I shall continue to make. This wishful thinking too, will stay forever etched permanently in my mind. Missed seeing the dogs too!
Making choices and decisions play an important role in our daily lives especially in mine. The power to happiness, the power to choose and decide on the new type of living skills, to adopt the assistive ICT skills, the freedom to socialise and interact with and among old and new friends, are among the wonderful aspects of life made possible thru' the process of making choices and decisions . So, I am glad that I was able to discover and tap into this power within myself. This certainly has helped me in providing the courage, the road maps and the inspirations to march on in life with positive strides.
More challenging times ahead